Hello, beautiful people.
Today was the first day that I’ve cried in months. I mean, I’ve teared up on more than one occasion, but other than that, no actual tears. I can’t say that I feel relieved after crying. If anything, I feel even more sad than I did before.
Somehow, I’ve found myself ignoring all of my emotions again. Yes, I said again. I’ve been down this road before. Though, I know how it ends I still continue to do it. I always end up regretting it. I know that the older I get the more responsibilities I may have. I know that time will continue to go on and I’ll have to deal with everything whether I like it or not. I just don’t know how to deal with things this time. One things for sure, I cannot continue to ignore everything and pretend like my problems don’t exist. I tell myself that I’m strong enough and there’s no reason to acknowledge them. We all know that’s not the truth.
After saying all of that, I’ve remembered that we all have good and bad days. I guess today was just one of those days. Before I go any deeper, I’ll leave it here. I just wanted to share what I was feeling with you guys. If no one else has told you, I think you’re all amazing. Wherever you are I hope you’re having a great day.
©️ 2020, Leigh R.